Hi. I am here. I am alive. I know I haven’t been posting and I almost feel bad about that but really, I have had nothing to say. I think I alternate between spewing my emotions and bottling them up and lately, I’ve been in a bottling phase. The people in my day to day life sometimes seem to prefer it that way (I think I may be guilty of overly spewing a bit too much too frequently) and so I’ve felt no incentive to change, to share more. As a result, I’ve had nothing to post. And I’ve been really busy.
The school system kicked their own tail into high gear and plugged me into the substitute system almost two weeks ago. I’ve worked every day since, save yesterday, which was a snow day. I leave here in just a few minutes to go shape some more young minds. I’ve truly found something I’m excellent at. Something that’s very natural and right for me. Something I excel at almost without trying and that matters to me. However, the pay is shit and I have an interview tomorrow for another soul sucking secretarial job at a large financial planning firm. If all goes well, I would be paid an actual salary (one on which one could potentially hope to live, to pay bills on and eat on and such) and have actual benefits (like the luxury of being able to visit the doctor once a year and buy birth control without selling a kidney on the black market). At this point, I can’t decide which is worse- the perpetual fear create by the dire lack of monetary funds that I’m currently living in or the souless, joyless, uninteresting but fairly well funded world of secretarial work. But, as the Stud has pointed out, all this wondering and fretting and stewing is still premature as I don’t actually have a job offer for secretarial work yet and, therefore, I shall wait to make a decision between the lesser of these two evils until I actually have two evils in hand.
Also, in somewhat more cheerful news, the Original Engaged Sister is about to become the Married Sister next weekend. I still haven’t paid for the hotel room, figured out batchelorette party gifts, worked out how I’m going to incorporate purple into my black bridesmaids dress (as is required by the bride) or sorted out with the Stud which one of us gets to drink at the reception and which one has to navigate the hour and a half commute home, but I’m sure all that will somehow, magically, fall into place. At least I hope so… Congrats Little Sis! (Even if it is a bit early…)
